Wait, I don't want to be...

...a geek.

I want to write something about my tatemae and my honne

But that's geeky in itself. Cuz those are Japanese words.

"I don't want to be perceived the way I am, I just want to be perceived the way I am." and now I'm I nerd for quoting Relient K.

I love who I am but don't know about how I feel I am defined, how maybe even I define myself. I am "the girl in Navigators that went to Japan." And that's true. And if you talk to me I'll probably talk about Japan. If you ask me about my future I say "I think Japan." What do I pray for everyday? Japan. What do a lot of the links on my blog have to deal with? Japan.

You know, no one even knows my blog exists yet.

Well here's me trying to show my honne (inner feelings)

And now will I be brave enough to tell people about my blog?

I read this today:

"Do not call conspiracy everything that these people call conspiracy; do not fear what they fear, and do not dread it. The LORD Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy, He is the one you are to fear, He is the one you are to dread..." (Isaiah 8:12-13)

No matter how much I want to worry about everything, this is true. No matter what my fears tell me, He deserves my life and owns it.

And why can't just that be all that defines me?